The Next Chapter
Today I am starting the next chapter… letting go of the old to allow for the new. It is New Year’s Eve 2017, but it is not the impending new year that is causing me to look forward, no, it is God nudging me to do so. He has been for a while, but I have blatantly ignored His commands for some time… and I know it. I can’t really even explain why, except I’m scared. I’m scared to give up what’s comfortable, even though it’s not fulfilling to my soul. A recent sermon at church spoke to me. It referenced John 5:2-9:
2Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool with five covered colonnades, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda. 3On these walkways lay a great number of the sick, the blind, the lame, and the paralyzed. 5One man there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. 6Jesus saw him lying there and realized he had already been there a long time. “Do you want to get well?” He asked. 7“Sir,” replied the sick man, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am on my way, someone else goes in before me.” 8Then Jesus told him, “Get up, pick up your mat, and walk.” 9Immediately the man was made well, and he picked up his mat and began to walk.
Just as the story of the sick man… I have become conditioned by my condition, meaning even though these things are not fulfilling to me, I have become accustomed to them and settled that this is the way it is always going to be. By doing this I know I am preventing the blessings He has prepared for my life. I’ve honestly gotten to the point that I don’t really even know what it is that my heart desires, but I know God’s plans for me are better than anything I could dream for myself anyways… I am ready to accept them.
So, I’m choosing for today to obey Him. One command He given me over and over is to write. To write about this journey of faith and failures I have been on the past few years, but I haven’t done so. It’s scary to put into black and white all of the stumbles and poor choices I make on a daily basis. I have no problem writing about the victories, but that’s not what life is. Real life is not the highlight reel. So, I have decided to finally obey. My goal is to write frequently, instead of waiting until I think I have something worthy to say, or waiting until I can write everything “perfectly” or “inspiring”… I have no doubt that I will slip and fall into bad habits, because I believe there is a part of me that isn’t ready to get “well”… and I know that part of me always leads to self-sabotage, but hopefully, I will pick myself back up and move forward faster each time I do. To start the next chapter, I am changing my online name from Fit911Chick to Stacie Mountain – me, not a persona I hide behind. It is time to “pick up my mat and walk”.
-Stacie Mountain – FaithfullyFitChick