Oh me, oh my, how time flies…

So, it has been forever and a day since my last blog post – you know, that goal of frequently writing one that I set for myself last year… Sigh. Anyways, C’est la vie… A lot has happened over the last year – I met and fell in love with my fiance. Which led to quitting my nearly 16 year EMS career, moving across state lines to live with him, and becoming a stay-at-home mom for the time being. HUGE changes for a girl that generally fears change. Some of it’s been rough, but it’s also been rewarding. I’m still trying to find my place in this world, because my whole role in life has suddenly been turned upside down. I went from being a single, full-time working mom, solely supporting my daughter and myself to suddenly being a stay-at-home mom who now relies on someone else to bring home the bacon so-to-speak… and let me tell you – that can be scary as hell for the control freak in me who has always done it all myself, and never needed anyone for anything. But, I’m growing and learning to put down my pride, let go of some of that control, and trust this man to love and provide for me and my daughter. It’s all good. That being said… I am ready to conquer some new challenges, and start making a difference in the world outside my home again. I worked as an EMT for over 15 years, and most people would think that’s a rewarding job, but for me it became stagnant. I rarely ever felt like I did anything worth while. I would clock in for my 12 hr overnight shift, and never feel like I ever really made a difference or challenged myself in anyway. It was all so monotonous and routine to me by the end. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed EMS more than any other job I’ve ever had, but I just felt as though I had done all I could possibly do in it… and I did a damn good job at it, so I could walk away from it feeling satisfied with myself. I do still have moments where I miss certain aspects of that job. I hate to be cliche, but it does sorta get in your blood. I started when I was 20 years old, so I sorta “grew up” in EMS. In my 15+ years I saw some really terrible things, but I also saw some really amazing things, and it really opened my eyes to how the world works. You really see all aspects of life – one moment you’re in a homeless shelter helping a patient, then less than an hour later you’re in a million dollar mansion. You see people at their most vulnerable, and you learn “street smarts” like you never would’ve imagined you needed. It did change me. It made me stronger, wiser, harder, and I like that, because I like the person I became because of it. So, I think I’m going to keep the “911” in my name, because it was a huge part of my life. I’m thankful I got to experience it the way I did. So… now for new challenges and adventures. First up, I’m doing another Figure competition. I start training Monday. This isn’t exactly new for me, but I have not been consistently working out because I’ve been a walking injury over the past year – shoulder injury, back injury, and finally an ankle injury from falling 15 feet from a ladder. So, really I’m starting over in the fitness department as well. I am ready to get back to intense workouts, eating healthy, and feeling good again. I will admit I am out of shape right now, and I feel like shit! I’m ready to transform myself physically, mentally, and emotionally… something I know I can do over the next 12 weeks, and beyond because I have done it before… and it’s freaking awesome! The competition is just a jump-start for me. As I’m training myself for my show, I plan on studying and getting my personal training certification, as well as blogging more (for real this time lol), and documenting what I do to achieve my fitness goals. I want to make a difference and help others. I want to lead by example. I want to challenge myself and others to live a happy, healthy, and balanced life. I want to kick some ass! 😉 I’m scared as hell to take on this new chapter in my life, but I know I can do it. I will do it. Watch me, Ready. Set. Go! 🙂

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